rant.

I was reading my witchcraft book just now, trying to sleep, and I just thought to myself... i want to be a better person. I don't want to lie anymore. I want to correct all that I have done wrong. Maybe this is just yet another of my BiPolar moments... but I truly don't know if it was that... or the feeling of a new beginning that brought this on. I was just laying here trying to sleep and I just had this realization that I haven't been a very good person through my teenage years. Maybe this is the beginning of my relationship with the devine, I'm not really sure. what I am sure of, is that I feel so strongly about this. I just feel like crying, getting out all of the hurt that I've been bottling up all of these years. I know this is a bit much to be posting here especially because this is a Wiccan blog not a depression blog, but it seems like I am finally being guided through all of this. I even got up at a reasonable time today. As I said before, i'm not sure if this has to do with my beginning to seriously study wicca or not, but it is really weird if it doesn't. I don't think I have ever been so excited about anything. I have to try to go to bed now but I had to try and get this out

AWESOME WEB PAGE

I found this web page and I was soooo excited. Herbs can be oh so expensive and there is a website here that tells you some that are very common in the everyday kitchen and their magical qualities http://windspirit57.tripod.com/id4.html sorry i cant rly blog right now, i just wanted to share it.

just a quick post

i found this youtube channel just now and i didnt want to loose it... here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96KPhAPCLeI&feature=related it is a series that teaches you about herbology. i am going to save it for later in my training but i wanted to share it with you.

Some things I've been up to

For the last two days I have been surfing youtube quite alot just to find some wiccan vloggers or whatever and maybe get some people to join me on this journey of my year and a day training. My favorite youtuber by far is TipToeChick she is amazing. She vlogs about everythign wicca. She stopped vlogging a while back but I am going to watch all the videos she has up. She is soooo smart and is very connected to her faith. There are a few more that I can't remember their names. I've started reading a bit here and there but no majorly impressive websites yet. Ill keep you updated =] I feel like I am growing already

The Beginning of a New Journey

So I have decided to start my year and a day training. I have considered myself Wiccan for a few years now but haven't been able to because my mom didn't approve of my choice of religion. I will try to post any links and books I recommend on this blog.

I am going to try and write in here every day, but sometimes that won't happen being a single mom. I really just want to document this because I think it will be cool to read later all the steps I took and all that I learned and how my spirituality grew and how I achieved my relationship with the god and goddess and with nature itself.

So I have had my tools for some time now. I have:

god/goddess candles
chalice
altar cloth
altar pentacle
wand
bell
athame
sage smudge-stick
BOS
cauldron
feather
incense and burner
tea lights/ illumination candles
and of course more candles and candle holders

i ordered some books off of amazon today as well. I got:

A Witches Bible (15.75)
I re-bought my tarot set: Goddess Tarot Deck and Book Set (7.66)
The only Wiccan Spell Book You'll Ever Need: For Love, Happiness, and Prosperity (4.95)
The Dictionary of Modern Herbalism (2.00)
Solitary Wicca For Life: Complete Guide to Mastering the Craft on your Own (4.00)

so I will let you know what I think of those. =] They will be here in a couple weeks.

So I will let you know if I find any good websites or whatever for the time being. So good luck on your journey and blessed be =]