rant.

I was reading my witchcraft book just now, trying to sleep, and I just thought to myself... i want to be a better person. I don't want to lie anymore. I want to correct all that I have done wrong. Maybe this is just yet another of my BiPolar moments... but I truly don't know if it was that... or the feeling of a new beginning that brought this on. I was just laying here trying to sleep and I just had this realization that I haven't been a very good person through my teenage years. Maybe this is the beginning of my relationship with the devine, I'm not really sure. what I am sure of, is that I feel so strongly about this. I just feel like crying, getting out all of the hurt that I've been bottling up all of these years. I know this is a bit much to be posting here especially because this is a Wiccan blog not a depression blog, but it seems like I am finally being guided through all of this. I even got up at a reasonable time today. As I said before, i'm not sure if this has to do with my beginning to seriously study wicca or not, but it is really weird if it doesn't. I don't think I have ever been so excited about anything. I have to try to go to bed now but I had to try and get this out